My Quarrantine Diary

I lose track of time; sometimes, so I don't know what day it is that I left off here anyway.  Today is a good day; we finally helped Theo to not only get in a wheelchair, but to also have Chris that is also training nurse, I guess, (forgot his title), anyways, thank goodness there is someone with Theo that he knows this time, to go to the hospital for a second opinion, from a specialist, since he has more then one thing going on with him now, and he also not only bedridden for the past week or so, its a miracle that he is up in his wheelchair, and heading to the hospital, least this time he won't be all by himself, as he needs someone to speak up for him since he's not only has a week heart, but also has special needs, (like myself, but I'm higher handicapped).  I never thought; I'd see this day, to see my husband bedridden and so sick, just breaks my heart to see him or anyone has to suffer like that, but if he does have to go to heaven, he will always be in my heart, like my dad and other deceased relatives and friends, I know at least they are not suffering anymore and they're at peace, that is how I deal with death and grief is much different, I tend to hold my tears at the funerals, but sometimes I just let it out, which is more healthy to express your feelings, especially in times of crisis or loss, its hurts to see them go, but you know they ave in a better place, and we are never alone, we got family and heavenly angels watching over us.